Sunday, 28 March 2010

i am a hobo?!

Hello. It is Sunday. I would say that it is my favourite day of the week, but that is not true, so i will avoid that. We were planing to go to Montreal today to visit some places. You know, since dad is here for just one more week. But that fell apart because apparently the places where we wanted to go to are closed due to effing Canadians who are striking, as if they have no hobbies, but that. So we will be going to the museum of civilization to their new exhibition. I plan to not like it, though i am afraid that i will, a little.

The line of the day that was born in my head this morning is "I dreamt I am a hobo and i woke up tired". It is true, i did dream that i am homeless. I just think that there is something to think about. Since some think that being a hobo is easy, they think that they get money from the people who are nice enough to give change to street people and that they get food at soup kitchens and garbage, and shelter in the homeless shelters that are here and there around the city. Others say that they don't work, so they can not possibly be tired. I disagree. In the dream i was crazy looking for a place to stay for the night that had became unusually cold. I do not recall the reason why i was living on the street or how i ended up with no shelter for that very night. I remember being hungry and i remember that i was unable to ask people for help, just because i know how most people look at hobos. I was ashamed to be where i was. I recall being hungry and unable to eat, and i recall needing to use a washroom and i had no access to one. So absurd.
I remember that some odd family had a shed and they were happy to help me out, for the night at least. There was a girl who was about my age and we played chess on a hand drawn chess table and half of the figurines were missing. It didn't matter, we just played, she told me to pretend that i am just taking over someone's game who had lost some of the worriers. And so i did that. It was fun to play since no one cared who will win or who will lose - we were happy that we had something.. And i'm not talking about the chess board, i'm talking about the company each of us had. I was lucky to be in a shelter for the night. The girl was happy to have a someone to play with and the parents of that girl were glad that their daughter could be happy, at least for the moment.

Things like these make me remember how lucky i am to have a place to live in and a family that is there for me, even if not always they are right here beside me. So many people have no clue of what it is like to don't have the primary needs of a human being. It is ridiculous of what they think they deserve.. Preposterous.

Sunday, 21 March 2010

Pamainījo šo to profilā

es nedzeru kafiju
man mugurā nav jaka
lietussargs ir atkritumos
esmu rezerves spēlētājs
šahā uzvar tas, kuram gudrāka dāma
reizēm drīkst arī domāt
vietā tika ielikts
Samaitāta brīvdomātāja, raktu blogus, sirgstu ar dzīves un svaiga gaisa atkarību, lai gan esmu izteikta pilsētu mīļotāja. Cienu labu kultūru. Lai gan mēdzu būt mirla, es atbalstu nepārtrauktu kustību un esmu gatava negaidītajam, ko dzīve mēdz piespēlēt. Uzskatu, ka šad tad impulsivitāte ir ne vien laba, bet ieteicama. Vajag man savu trakuma devu, lai izdzīvotu. Mīlu ceļot. Personības pipariņš - spītība. Smaidu reti, bet, ja smaidu, tad smaidu līdz ausīm, jo tas nozīmē, ka esmu ar draugiem.

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too much to carry

Hello. March break is OVER. School tomorrow. It was OK. Went to Sudbury with part of da family. Visited some museums, got to see how real mining goes. Had a relaxing time. Oh, and my dad is here in Canada now, he got here a week ago and is staying two more weeks. I plan to go clubbing on friday, but i am not sure if i will. Maybe i will just go to friend's house and chill. Also, i have re-started to go to the gym. I'm very, very happy about that! Luv ya all.

And, here are some random questions and answers. You don't have to read them. I just did it for myself. But You may if You really, really want to. 

From now on, you can't tell lies, are you ready?
bring it on

When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more?

If you were pregnant, would you keep the baby?

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
it's alright

Who was the last girl you talked to?
some girl at the museum in Sudbury

Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don't talk to anymore?

When was the last time you had ice cream? What kind was it?
one or two months ago, chocolate + walnut & maple syrup

Last person you went swimming with?
can not recall that

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
not really

How late did you stay up last night?
around one at night

How many kids do you want?
now- none, haha, later on, time will tell, maybe 1, maybe 6, hihi

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
depends, friends usually can do that better

What was the last drink you had?

Would you rather spend a day outside with friends or inside alone?
now, outside with friends. sometimes, inside alone.

Would you go back in time to change something?

How are you feeling?

True love or a billion dollars?
billion dollars, i would spend some of the cash to find the true love, and than we will have money to spend on our happily ever after

Has anything happened within the past month that has made you angry?

Are you happy?

What are you craving at the moment?
go to da gym, but i have to leave in an hour, so i can't really make it on time, but it's ok, i'll go tomorrow after school, meanwhile i will stick to Laima candy.

What is more important in a relationship, happiness or trust?
trust? happiness? trust? happiness? aren't they linked? trust, i suppose, cuz if there is trust than there can be happiness, with no trust there will be no happiness.

Are you in a good mood right now?
define 'good mood'..cuz i don't know

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?
haha, not that i can remember

What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?
put the keys back in my bag

Name some things you would never tolerate in a relationship?
rudeness and disloyalty

Whats the best thing that happened to you today?
i woke up

What is the cutest text message you have ever gotten?
can't name any specific one, but it would probably be some x-mas msg with a criminally cute rhyme in it

Do you trust people?
very, very rarely

What's your favorite color to wear?

Have you cried today?

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
clean water

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
no, i don't think about my death at all

Do you love the last person who called you?
think it was some rogers person or something like that! sad, i know.

Could you date someone taller than you?
haha, yes i could and i would.

Do you sleep on your back?
i sleep on my bed.

What are you listening to?
alternative, indie, jazz and other chit too.

Next time you will kiss someone?

Where do you want to go?

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
no, i don't think so

Have you ever been heartbroken?
lol, i have no heart to brake, so i guess so.

How did you feel when you woke up today?
happy it was sunday

Do you cry easily?
depends on the subject matter, sometimes i'm too sensitive, other times i'm a heartless monster

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?

When was the last time you watched a horror movie?
~two weeks ago

Do you have any drugs in your room?
nope, never had any

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
if she slept with my bf how can she be classified as my BF?

Think of the person who has hurt you the most in the past year, who is it?
can't tell ya, i'm not a teller, i'm a keeper.

Do you love it when you say something the same time as someone?
love? no way. but it can be sorta cool.

What were you doing at 7:00 am?

Ever receive a really long apology?
too long

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?

When is your birthday?

Are you a forgiving person?

Are you wearing makeup?
not right now

Anywhere you'd rather be right now?
far, far away. the woods of argentina, india, the moon, anything, as long as it is far away.

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
there have been some crazy weeks, but not most of the time

Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?

Is anything bugging you right now?
a lot of things are bugging me all da time

What woke you up this morning?
the human instinct

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
if i really had to..

Do you have alcohol in your house?

Do you miss being little and careless?
yeah, especially the carelessness.

Are you very sensitive?
i suppose

How many times did you go see the Twilight movie?
once, oh no, twice, i watched it the second time right before watching new moon

Where did you meet the last person you were in a car with?
don't know how you would categorize meeting your family.

Do you listen to music everyday?
not every day

Do you have any energy drink or soda cans laying around?

What color are your nails usually painted?
redish, pinkish, or the no colour one

What is your favorite number?
why would i have one?

Do you know your family members' birthdays?
yeah, but knowing is never enough

Do you have any tests or exams soon?
probably a test sometime soon

Coffee: Love it or hate it?
neither, i simply don't do coffee, it gives no effect

Are you going to go to bed, take a shower, or look for another survey when this over?
i will have to leave shortly, so none of the above.

What color hair elastic did you last use?
a round one. :D

How was your sleep?

Last thing you did to someones hair?
just played with it, lol

Did anyone say they loved you today?

Are you more comfortable waiting or making something happen?
depends on how i feel

Have you ever kissed in the snow?

Are you good at standing up for yourself?
think so

Do you like being there for people?
love it

Do you often feel like you're becoming someone you don't want to be?

Do you think you’ve made a difference in anyone’s life?
i think so

Are you starting to realize anything?
yes, too much

Ever lay under the stars with someone that you love?

Have you left some things unsaid with a certain person?

When did you last weigh yourself?
in the morning

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?

Is there someone you really can't stop thinking about?
used to be

What’s the worst feeling in the world?
that you've got nowhere to go for support in a critical moment

Do you feel like there's something missing in your life?

What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word, drama?
my drama class.

Do you think relationships are hard?
not sure

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
i simply hate it

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
closed off

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?

What are you doing right now?
getting ready to leave, and this

Who were you last talking to on Facebook chat?
offline always

What's your favorite colour?

What Are you doing tomorrow?

Are you in love?

Have you ever taken a picture of your eye?
once or twice

Do you actually have a favorite flower?

Can you change a printer cartridge?

Do you have sensitive skin?

Do you recognize Justin Timberlake’s songs?

When did you last have a cookie?
today, i think

Are you lactose intolerant?

Are you a sarcastic person?
haha, not at all.
lol, yes i am.

Who were you in middle school?
i was her

Saturday, 13 March 2010

Memory to Memoir

The past weeks in writers craft we have been writing memoirs. The first one was just like a intro, so we get the just of it and how it is done. It had to about three childhood smells. As it is writers craft, memoirs too are all about using imageries and other literary devices that make the text more delightful. The second memoir is a bigger and longer piece and can be written about any memory, or series of memories. Right now i am in the rough copy one stage. Can't wait for it to be done, but more excited i am for the process it self.


Wish me a relaxing March Brake!!! ;D

Thursday, 4 March 2010

Esmu tas kas tu neesi

Un tā jau ir ka katrs esam kaut kas kas otrs nav. Un kā gan teātrī mēs varam būt kaut kas kas patiesībā neesam? Un vēl jo vairāk, kā mēs varam būt kaut kas, kas mēs nevaram būt? Tāpēc jau aktiermāksla ir tik ārprātīgi sarežģīta. Vai nu mums jāveic neiespējamais, vai nu jāizveido kaut kas, ko neviens cits iepriekš nav nav veidojis. Mums ir jārada pavisam jaunas lietas par kurām skatītājs vien brīnās, jo neko citu gluži vienkārši nevar izdarīt.

Eh, nu labi, tad darām to neiespējamo.
Es nemāku!

Par savu režisēto gabalu esmu tīri priecīga. Skolotājs atzina, ka bija viena no labākajām kuri viņš pats bij skatījies. Man prieks. Vispār līdz šim likās, ka tas skolotājs mani zināmā mērā nicina. Tā šķita, jo viņam patīk tikai tie, kas ir lecīgi. Esmu teātra cilvēks. Tāds, kas daudz nelecās. Man piekāst vai kādam tas patīk vai nē. Vispār vēl joprojām šķiet, ka viņam īpaši nepatīku. Bet man po! ;D

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

The other girl

There is this girl that lives with me in my room. We fight. We fight a lot. We fight all the time. We fight too much. It is because we are very different people. When ever i like something she thinks it is the worst thing in the entire world. And the things she adores make me puke. She is the south and i am the north. Total opposites. She never listens to me. She does things that annoy me. She treats people differently. She has a very different perspective on life. She gives me hard time when it comes to eating. She says i eat too much and that i am too fat already. I can't fit in my old jeans. She tells me that i pay too little attention to my school work and that my bad marks are just the proof of that. She tells me that i don't know how to get friends and that i don't understand people. One day she told me that the career that i plan to pursue is not the right for me. Who am i kidding? She has said that more than once. To be precise, almost every day.

She thinks about me all the time.

All in one she is a very nice person. But i can't stand her any longer. I think i will need to ask her to move out. I am not sure though if she needs a week or two, or maybe i should give her some years, You know, around fifty or so.. I will think.

Her name is Marta too. I think it is odd that so different people can have the same names. What the heck, at least there is something we do have in common.
Oh, one more thing - I am her.

Thank You! I'm off now.