It's March!

Well, well, well.

Time sure flies. So many things have been going on, I don't even know where to start.
First, last month my first niece was born (after four nephews you'd think it's about time!), and that has been on top of my happy list lately.
I also begun my driving theory classes, so far they've not been awesome. I am learning things, but the dude teaching me and le group is some old fart who has zero faith in young people and he thinks that Latvia's current president is the only decent president he's seen in office ever. (To put in in a perspective, the current president has the worst rating off all the presidents we have had.)
But lucky for me that I study from books, and it's basically just memorizing so I don't really have to give a damn about what he says or doesn't say. Just have to be at the class twice a week.
Later this month I'll be going to Portugal again! I can't wait. I am so excited, I just want to make flips like a small puppy, but then I realize that I can't do that.
My friend has moved into a flat, and her boyfriend has arrived, and to be honest I am jealous of her. But she knows it. :D
And I have a job interview next week, and I am so worried, but it's good that I've not quit my current job, so I don't have to panic too much.
Life is moving forward at a speed that I can't really follow along to, just keep playing catch-up with it. I've also been sick for two weeks or so. Bad cough, had high temperature and the past two days my head just keeps aching. Oh well.

Work has become really dull. I'm at work now and I seriously can't be bothered to do much. Blah! Have to reply to yet another complaint, people are just ridiculous!


Also winter was gone all February, ha, I've even forgotten what snow feels like. Winter was gone before it actually got here. The migratory birds have started to come back. The pussy willow has begun to bloom. The sun leaves later and comes right back up around the time I get up from my sleep. The lights in the city dim off soon in the morning. People seem to ditch their warm coats, hats and mittens. I guess spring is here.

Laid mani vaļā.

Gatavā pedofīlija. Kas tas vispār par vājprātu? Kā tā var būt, ka nu jau kādu mēnesi esmu slima? Gribas lamāties. Tā ir cūcība. Vajadzēja man saaukstēties. Un tagad tas nolāpītais kakls, tik sāp un sāp. Ne par ko negrib pāriet. Sviests, vienkārši besis. Nav spēka priecāties par ikdienas sīkumiem, par sestdienas pankūkām, par aromātisko dušas želeju, par kārtējo romantisko komēdiju. Nav. Viss. Nulle. Nul. Zilch. Nada. !

fakts

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es esmu slima.
vienmēr esmu bijusi.
tagad jauna depresijas blakusparādība - Kompulsīvā Pārēšanās.
Par šo parādību uzzināju pavisam netīšām.
Tātad,
sāka biedēt tas, ka tā vietā, lai iešana uz zāli vestu pie kg zaudēšanas es kļuvu smagāka un smagāka. Pēdējo ~divu mēnešu laikā esmu pieņēmusies svarā par kādiem astoņiem kg...
sākumā kāpjot uz svariem teicu, ka tas ir dabīgi.. (jo normāli, kad atsāk fiziskās aktivitātes, tad dabīgi pieaug ēstgriba, tā man jau ir bijis).. Bet vēlme kaut ko apēst nezuda. Tad nu es pievērsu uzmanību tām entajām domubiedru grupām (draugiem.lv) par dietām un notievēšanu un meklēju diskusijas- "Kā mazināt apetīti?" "Kā atturēties no saldumiem"...utt. Vienā diskusijā meitene (sieviete) atklāti pasacīja, ka ēd tad kad pat negribās. Un nevis vnk ēd, bet saldumus un treknumus. Vot, ir īstais. Izlasīju trīs lapas ar komentāriem un sapratu, ka man ir tieši tāda pati problēma. Citi teica, ka ēdot, jo tā ir bauda, un tad nav jādomā par visām raizēm, kas mācās virsū ikdienas dzīvē. ..
Protams, normāli tas nav, ka man dienas laikā svars ir pamazinājies par 2kg, bet tas ir tikai tāpēc, ka es aizvakar apēdu pēdējo kūkas gabaliņu, kas vēl bija palicis (tas nozīmē, ka ne vakar ne šodien pie kūkas netiku) ..
nu jā, vismaz tagad saprotu, kas ar mani notiek un zinu, ka tāda neesmu vienīgā.
šodien vairākas reizes izdevās ēdiena vietā izdzert glāzi ūdens, un tagad košļāju košļeni, lai tik nemestos pa taisno uz virtuvi. es nezinu cik ilgi es spēšu stāties prētī virtuves kārdinošajai aurai..
bet es izdomāšu.. Protams visu dienu esmu pārēdusies kā tāds Homērs Simpsons! :o
eh, man kaut kas jāizgudro. Bet kas?
ieteikumi?
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BAUDU BRĪVLAIKU SLINKOJOT!
IEKOD MAN! :D