I am an Apricot

Yeah, I am an apricot. It's a funny story really. I once met an Irish man who told me that anyone could be what ever they wanted to be. So immediately I had to decide what I wanted to be. First thought was to be some kind of superhero. You know having super powers would be awesome. But then I figured that even more awesome it would be to be an animal. Like a giraffe for example. Imagine having the longest neck in the entire universe. How cool would that be?? HuH?

But all in all I decided to be an apricot because it has no responsibilities. It is small and mostly unseen. No one notices it. It is one of countless. But what is even more important, it has no feelings. It does not feel pain, it does not feel love, it doesn't know what disappointment is, it has no clue what it is like to be happy. It knows nothing, and it does not care of anything.

I want to be an apricot because life would be so much easier. And sometimes we all deserve for things to be easy. We all want simple and nice things. Is it really too much to ask for a nice Christmas? I don't need no presents. I want a Christmas tree. I don't need extreme decorations. A neat candle will do the job, and a nice melody that reminds of times when Christmas was really a magical time.

I am an apricot for it has no feelings.

"I'll Miss You! ♥"

I'm too lazy to search for a quotation that would say something about time, but You can just imagine I have a quotation here to start of my today's writing. I do realize that I have been writing about time too much, but it is something that I don't get enough of. Alright, instead of writing a quotation about time, I can insert a quotation about friendship. Ok? Sounds better already, doesn't it?

It takes a long time to grow an old friend.
/John Leonard/

I'm leaving the following Thursday. I am happy because I will see my friends and relatives in Latvia, but I am sad because I have to say goodbye to all my friends here. I still can not swallow the fact that I will most likely never see my Canada friends ever again. I can not imagine a day when I would want to chill with them and would not be able to meet up in a few hours. I can't believe there will no more be drunken nights with tons of booze and ridiculous conversations that somehow end up involving my boobs (don't ask :D) or other just as random topic. I refuse to accept that there will no more be emotional dramas and fake meanassness, lateness and evil prank calls, and other even more unforgivable actions. I simply can't imagine not tweeting about how I feel when with them. So there will no more be greedy eye glazes, and fighting about things I should be thankful existed. No more dancing at clubs where all you hear is the TOP 50 chart songs and so are able to sing along to every song, no scratch that, yell along to every song. There will not be any "mystery guests" at parties, and no more dares like making a girl turn on a gay guy. There will never be a group of people who comprehend jewish and black, and communist jokes on the level that we do,  nor will there be any new retarded inside jokes (I guess this is where the boob thing comes in).

This is THE END to an era, but as the old times go, new ones are about to unfold. And even though it is extremely sad to leave everything behind and move on, I am looking forward to the future.

But for now, let's forget about the past or the future. I adore this moment and there is no way I will give it away. so... LET'S LIVE IT UP!!

York Street and Graduation

I am officially a graduate of secondary school. Yeah, I have a diploma now!


ugh. ill finish this tomorrow. or the day after that. or ... some other day. but i really have loads to say! :)

All Too Much

Hi.

Many things have happened recently, and I will try to cover as much as I can. I don't have much time, so I will just go fast through things.

First I would like to let You know that I have finished school. I will be getting my diploma this Friday, but I had my last exam last Friday, so I am done! About that, though I am done, I signed up for summer school. I will be doing to two courses to increase my mark in English and Biology, all to get into my first choice University: Glasgow Caledonian. If I don't get in there then I will be probably going to Dundee University. We shall see how things work out. I am applying to live in Glasgow Caledonian residence, I just need to finish the application and send it to them (along with several other things). So yeah, basically there is a lot of things to do.

Other thing that I wanted to talk about was the past weekend. Friday night we (me, mom and Tašpuks) went to Zemgālija. It was so relaxing and, and.. I had a great time there. I would go into to details, but as I said, I am in a rush. The next morning we went to Canada's Tērvete for the Līgo celebration. That included folk dancing, singing, and, of course, beer drinking. It was supposed to be more fun, but one of my good friends left early that night, but my other friend, who said she would be there was no where to be found. But it was alright. The next morning we were on our way back to Ottawa. But we didn't stay home for long. We had to get dressed and leave for this church thing, blah, blah, blah (I just don't know what it is called in English) and after that we went to celebrate at this families place. They live by the lake and there was a great view, fancy dinner and a lot of fun with other people. And it was probably the last time I will ever see Edijs, a guy who claims that I am his favourite girl. How cute is that? Haha.

And this week is busy as hell. Today I have to clean up the house, and then I'm going to the movies with Rebeka, that should be fun. I might be sleeping over at her place, and that should be fun as well. (Yeah, not so good on synonyms today). Tomorrow is Thinh's and Sunny's birthday party, and I still need to get presents for them. Wednesday there is a plan to celebrate Līgo (again) and if not, then I will go clubbing. Thursday I have to go to a dinner that my friend's family is organizing. And Friday, as I already mentioned, is the commencement at our school, so all the grads of 2010 will be getting their diplomas in a very uncool, formal, unpersonalized, "american movie" fashion. Yeah, yeah, we will be wearing the gowns and the funny hats.  After that we (my mom, Tašpuks and I) will be going to a sushi place to celebrate the whole thing in a more personal and cozy atmosphere. Saturday is FREE. But I am sure that during the next few days I will fill it up with something (actually I have a feeling that I already have something to do, but I just don't recall it). And Sunday there is a concert at the Latvian place, some guest artists playing. Next Monday, so in a week, will be the Prom day. I will not be going to the official prom (buūuuuu). But I will go to an alternative version of it, and later to another alternative after-prom. That should be loads of fun!!!

That is my plan for the next week. So bye for now.
I miss You much but there is so little time!!!!

too much to carry

Hello. March break is OVER. School tomorrow. It was OK. Went to Sudbury with part of da family. Visited some museums, got to see how real mining goes. Had a relaxing time. Oh, and my dad is here in Canada now, he got here a week ago and is staying two more weeks. I plan to go clubbing on friday, but i am not sure if i will. Maybe i will just go to friend's house and chill. Also, i have re-started to go to the gym. I'm very, very happy about that! Luv ya all.

And, here are some random questions and answers. You don't have to read them. I just did it for myself. But You may if You really, really want to. 

From now on, you can't tell lies, are you ready?

bring it on

When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more?

Swim

If you were pregnant, would you keep the baby?

probably

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?

it's alright

Who was the last girl you talked to?

some girl at the museum in Sudbury

Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don't talk to anymore?

yes

When was the last time you had ice cream? What kind was it?

one or two months ago, chocolate + walnut & maple syrup

Last person you went swimming with?

can not recall that

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?

not really

How late did you stay up last night?

around one at night

How many kids do you want?

now- none, haha, later on, time will tell, maybe 1, maybe 6, hihi

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?

depends, friends usually can do that better

What was the last drink you had?

kefir

Would you rather spend a day outside with friends or inside alone?

now, outside with friends. sometimes, inside alone.

Would you go back in time to change something?

nope

How are you feeling?

lame

True love or a billion dollars?

billion dollars, i would spend some of the cash to find the true love, and than we will have money to spend on our happily ever after

Has anything happened within the past month that has made you angry?

yes

Are you happy?

sure

What are you craving at the moment?

go to da gym, but i have to leave in an hour, so i can't really make it on time, but it's ok, i'll go tomorrow after school, meanwhile i will stick to Laima candy.

What is more important in a relationship, happiness or trust?

trust? happiness? trust? happiness? aren't they linked? trust, i suppose, cuz if there is trust than there can be happiness, with no trust there will be no happiness.

Are you in a good mood right now?

define 'good mood'..cuz i don't know

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?

haha, not that i can remember

What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?

put the keys back in my bag

Name some things you would never tolerate in a relationship?

rudeness and disloyalty

Whats the best thing that happened to you today?

i woke up

What is the cutest text message you have ever gotten?

can't name any specific one, but it would probably be some x-mas msg with a criminally cute rhyme in it

Do you trust people?

very, very rarely

What's your favorite color to wear?

green

Have you cried today?

no

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?

clean water

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?

no, i don't think about my death at all

Do you love the last person who called you?

think it was some rogers person or something like that! sad, i know.

Could you date someone taller than you?

haha, yes i could and i would.

Do you sleep on your back?

i sleep on my bed.

What are you listening to?

alternative, indie, jazz and other chit too.

Next time you will kiss someone?

sure

Where do you want to go?

clubbing

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?

no, i don't think so

Have you ever been heartbroken?

lol, i have no heart to brake, so i guess so.

How did you feel when you woke up today?

happy it was sunday

Do you cry easily?

depends on the subject matter, sometimes i'm too sensitive, other times i'm a heartless monster

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?

yes

When was the last time you watched a horror movie?

~two weeks ago

Do you have any drugs in your room?

nope, never had any

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?

if she slept with my bf how can she be classified as my BF?

Think of the person who has hurt you the most in the past year, who is it?

can't tell ya, i'm not a teller, i'm a keeper.

Do you love it when you say something the same time as someone?

love? no way. but it can be sorta cool.

What were you doing at 7:00 am?

sleeping

Ever receive a really long apology?

too long

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?

yes

When is your birthday?

september

Are you a forgiving person?

yeah

Are you wearing makeup?

not right now

Anywhere you'd rather be right now?

far, far away. the woods of argentina, india, the moon, anything, as long as it is far away.

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?

there have been some crazy weeks, but not most of the time

Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?

no

Is anything bugging you right now?

a lot of things are bugging me all da time

What woke you up this morning?

the human instinct

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

if i really had to..

Do you have alcohol in your house?

yes

Do you miss being little and careless?

yeah, especially the carelessness.

Are you very sensitive?

i suppose

How many times did you go see the Twilight movie?

once, oh no, twice, i watched it the second time right before watching new moon

Where did you meet the last person you were in a car with?

don't know how you would categorize meeting your family.

Do you listen to music everyday?

not every day

Do you have any energy drink or soda cans laying around?

no

What color are your nails usually painted?

redish, pinkish, or the no colour one

What is your favorite number?

why would i have one?

Do you know your family members' birthdays?

yeah, but knowing is never enough

Do you have any tests or exams soon?

probably a test sometime soon

Coffee: Love it or hate it?

neither, i simply don't do coffee, it gives no effect

Are you going to go to bed, take a shower, or look for another survey when this over?

i will have to leave shortly, so none of the above.

What color hair elastic did you last use?

a round one. :D

How was your sleep?

alright

Last thing you did to someones hair?

just played with it, lol

Did anyone say they loved you today?

no

Are you more comfortable waiting or making something happen?

depends on how i feel

Have you ever kissed in the snow?

yeah

Are you good at standing up for yourself?

think so

Do you like being there for people?

love it

Do you often feel like you're becoming someone you don't want to be?

yeahh

Do you think you’ve made a difference in anyone’s life?

i think so

Are you starting to realize anything?

yes, too much

Ever lay under the stars with someone that you love?

sorta

Have you left some things unsaid with a certain person?

yeah

When did you last weigh yourself?

in the morning

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?

yes

Is there someone you really can't stop thinking about?

used to be

What’s the worst feeling in the world?

that you've got nowhere to go for support in a critical moment

Do you feel like there's something missing in your life?

sorta

What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word, drama?

my drama class.

Do you think relationships are hard?

not sure

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?

i simply hate it

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?

closed off

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?

naa

What are you doing right now?

getting ready to leave, and this

Who were you last talking to on Facebook chat?

offline always

What's your favorite colour?

green

What Are you doing tomorrow?

school-home-gym-home-sleep

Are you in love?

no

Have you ever taken a picture of your eye?

once or twice

Do you actually have a favorite flower?

no

Can you change a printer cartridge?

yes

Do you have sensitive skin?

yes

Do you recognize Justin Timberlake’s songs?

yeah

When did you last have a cookie?

today, i think

Are you lactose intolerant?

no

Are you a sarcastic person?

haha, not at all.

lol, yes i am.

Who were you in middle school?

i was her

...

An open pore. An open soul for You to stomp and kill. All Yours, there in Your palms. You stabbed me before, so i suppose now again it should be like a hard job made easy. I gave You all and more. I gave You my own little soul as an amulet to keep in the chest pocket, to keep You warm on days when it was an unbearably cold. On days when You needed a pal to tell all You needed to say, to feel like a human again. On days when rain was too tough to take and it caused tears in Your eyes because of sorrowful memories that'd past. On days when nothing was right, You had me there right beside You. I was there to catch You when You would fall. I was there to fix problems that seemed endless. I kept Your soul clean and ready to attack again. You where always ready, and only thanks to me.

Sometimes i wounder how You are doing with out your amulet. Do you often remember those days when you had everything? You had all the world in front of You, but all You could think about was losing the only thing You really had.
I yelled. I screamed. I told you many times. You never listened to me. You through me out like old socks that could be replaced with any other inhumane object. You were wrong. Like any other time when i kept You in safety thought i knew You had done the wrong things. I was always there for You. Your personal saviour. Your guarding angel.

Now it is You. It always haS been You. Once again You have another victim in Your arms. An almost dead soul that has been half murdered by Your own hand already once. I sit here, helpless, as i always have been. I am not begging You. I don't need You to spare my soul, because without You a part of me dies every day. Every single second i scream for Your love. I just wanted You to be there when i fell. ..but You weren't. You let me fall right down on my face.

So now, kill me if You must. Don't leave me half dead one more time. I better die now by my own traitor's hand then later by the deadly sorrows that will murder me because You will not be there to catch the poorly beating heart when it again will almost stop tracking its own blood stream.

PAR SPĪTI. Visam par spīti. Vakar visu nakti mana sirds tupināja pukstēt nomodā. Stunda pēc stundas. Es skaitīju brīžus, kas ritēja kopš brīža, kad šķīrāmies mēs. Bet par spīti visam. Par spīti apskāvieniem tuviem un acu skatiem gausiem es nespēju turpināt tā kā līdz šim. Man sāp, sāpēja un sāpēs. Agri no rīta ar vecu, neizgulētu miegu acīs es pierakstīju, lai atminētos: "..man Tevis pietrūkst. Šodien man Tevis oficiāli pietrūkst." Un viss. Es nespēju vairāk. Nebirt ne asaras žēlas, ne palīgā kliedzieni. Man nav vairs spēka,
jo sāp.
VISS.

Bezmiegā mokās mana miesa. Ko nu? Es zinu ko gribu, bet man pietrūkst spēka. Man nav gana drosmes. Lai cik ļoti es palīgā sauktu, es zinu, ka nenāksi Tu; nenāks neviens. Pārskaitļu pakāpēs mani moka rūgtā sirdsapziņa. Apbērta as saldām cukur lauskām, izkusušām. Nav prieka, nav jēga.
N Ē -
IR. nav. IR. nav. IR. nav. IR. nav. IR. nav.
Kūst viss. Nav spēka. Ko spēju es, kad doma vairs nav tieša. Man atbilde ir, uzrakstīta, bet NAV spēka to nolasīt. Es sameklētu visu. VISU. Bet man vajag, man vajag kā bērnam mātes pienu, man vajag Tavu palīdzību. Vai aļņi ar ragiem vai šallēm. Jā, visam sava vieta.
Tu man tā arī nepasacīji kāpēc!

life though the 'drama' lens

An other BITCH happened last week. I FAILED at improv. Not failed in its actual meaning, because that would be imposible.
Aparently the last audition for improv was on tuesday, the day when i wasn't in school. It was supposed to be on wednesday, but i couldn't find anyone and the teacher was in a some kind of meeting. And thursday morning when i wanted to go and ask the teacher when is the last audition i saw the list of Group A and Gropu B on his room's door. I wished i could go home. I was so sad and dissapointed!! Fuck!
Now i realize that i hate drama in general and fuck auditions. Im not a drama person, couse i just can't taki it anymore. Hate auditions. Yeah, i know that drama is greatly about rejection, but the percentage is just awful. Don't even want to think about it. If i EVER will be in drama again, then only for directing.. (as i am now, for backstage).

Nedēļas nogale pagāja labi. Sestdien bija dziesmu svētku atskaņa Otavā. Sabrauca cilvēki no malu malām. Bija satriecoši labs vakars. Koklējām, dejojām, pārdevām lotrejas biļetes, vēlāk arī izlozējām 6 (man šķiet) balvas.
Svētdienas vakarā satiku dažus paziņas, lai gan laiku pavadījām bezsakarā, nenožēloju, ka pametu biloģijas nepabeigot mājas darbu! :D

Kārtējā nedēļa.
NO AUDITIONS TODAY!
lol

Michael Jackson - Man in the Mirror

viss*

Es tevi turētu arī tad, ja kāds ar visiem saviem spēkiem rautu tevi prom.
No pēdu pirkstiem, līdz matu galiem, es raudu. Ikkatra daļiņa no manis sēro. Izraustīti mati, izgudrota jauna dziesma par mīlu, no debesīm krīt vecāki un vecāki nokrišņi. Nespēdami visu saķert savās kārajās rokās; mēs pamazām slīkstam. Pietrūkst tik ļoti vajadzīgais skābeklis un sāk lēnāk pukstēt mūžam tekošā sirds. Divsitienu skaņas nomaina klusuma kāre. Slāpst. Ne uz, ne no sirds plūst saldās asins plūsmas. Rokas negribīgi palaiž brīvu tavu silto pieskārienu vārpas. No tā, kas kādreiz bijis ir palikusi izvazāta sirds, bez barības, bez tā, kam rūp.
Ir palikusi kaila, sausa sirds.

another september gone

multitasking

Nu tā. Orģināli bija domāts, ka 'New Post' būs par to kā labāk un efektivāk darīt vairākas lietas vienlaicīgi. To mūsdienās spēj izdarīt ar vien vairāk un vairāk cilvēki. Šobrīd fonā skan faking Eminems (es tiešām neiznu kāpēc!!), ziņas (vajag priekš World Issues mājas darba), tam paralēli cenšos spēlēt zynga pokeri, runāt pa skype, meklēt info Can Fam projektam un, protams, rakstīt šo te, (tas viss ir neskaitot to, ka blakus stāv vēl dzimšanas dienas kūkas gabaliņš, bet to nedrīkst teikt, jo esmu pie mammas datora).
Manu prāt, labi tas nav, jo akurātāk lietas var izdarīt tikai, tad, ja nokoncetrējās tikai vienai lietai. Un tā visas pēc kārtas. Mans minējums ir, ka gala rezultāts būs daudz, daudz labāks un kvalitatīvāks.

Gribēju vēl šo to raktīt, bet es jau vairs neatminos ko..
Tad nu viss, pagaidām!

Guano Apes - Open Your Eyes

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pēdējāāā

Bija pēdējā skolas diena. Pēdējā stundu diena. Diena, kad var darīt ko un cik gribās, ja vien nav gadījies kāds asprātīgs skolotājs, kas šodien ieliek kontroldarbu, eksāmenu vai kādu citu darbu, kā rezultāts tiek pieskaitīts gada atzīmei. Citi skolotāji pasaka šo to priekšā par to, kas gaidāms eksāmenā vai arī pasaka kāda atzīme līdz šim; ir arī skolotāji, kas pēdējā dienā rīko party, tas ir tā, ka skolēni paši sanes paiku un ēd un pļāpā un uzdzīvo. Skola šodien bija diezgan tukša. Lai gan nē. Skolēni bija skolā, bet ne klasēs. Jā - tā viņš ir. Es uz pirmo stundu neaizgāju, jo skolotājs teica, ka nav vērts, ja neplāno mācīties un man šodien negribējās mācīties un pa nedēļas nogali nebija arī radušies jauni jautājumi. Otrā - bioloģija, uz to gan aizgāju, jo skolotājs ir to pelnījis un es arī! :D Viņš mums uzdeva dažus atjautības uzdevumu, lai biči palauzītu galvu; pasacīja kādas atzīmes pirms eksāmena un izskaidroja dažas lietas kuras citiem vēl nebija īsti skaidras. Klasē bija 8 skolēni no 18. (man liekās) Pusdienlaikā kopā ar diviem cilvēkiem biju aizgājusi uz veikalu parakstīju vēl citu gadagrāmatas un iedevu savējo.. Matemātikā biju domājusi gurķoties, bet baigās sanāca tomēr biči atkārtot eksāmenam. Skolotājs tik pateica kādas mums atzīmes līdz šim un palīdzēja tiem, kam bija vēl jautājumi. Skolēnu skaits klasē: 11/23. Tā kā teātris vairs nav, tad aizgāju noskaidrot atzīmi un tas arī viss. Tad devos mājās (NOT TRUE).
Tad pabeidz pēdējo gabaliņu darba un tad .. grasījos iet gulēt, bet izdomāju nolakot nagus. Tas izvērtās par TV skatīšanos UN aizmigšanu, UN nagu lakas izcūkošanu. Būs jālako no jauna. :\ :D

Un es tik turpinu klausīties Kanye West-Stronger (starpcitu, šī dziesma skanēja arī tad, kad spēlējām biljardu .. so cool! :D)

Šodien ir oficiāli gurķošanās diena! he he

...un es šo to sapratu, bet tas tev (jums) nav jāzina, varbūt es bubulim ausī iečukstēšu, bet ne tagad! ;)

atzīšanās

Kaitīgi?!
tā ir viena lietam, bet to saprast ir pavisam kaut kas cits.
Nu tad tā.. es dabūju ko kāroju, bet .. kā vienmēr it BET


.....man gribās vēl (!!!!!!)






kick me hard!
*ouch

wow

man iet tā: Beidzot izdodas nomest
vismaz pāris adoptētos kilogramus! :D

bet ne par to runa...

šodien viens cilvēks šito video parādīja:
Lost Generation
man zosāda sametās...
no visas sirds iesaku noklausīties (noskatīties) un .. padomāt

jaunā viela...

Lai no bērna izaugtu pieaudzis, sakarīgs cilvēks, ir daudz jāpiepūlas... bet tā kā vairums ļaužu ir slinki, lai censtos, rezultāts tāds, ka neviena sakarīgā nav..
Un es te varētu mūžīgi sēdēt un runāt glupības, bet ja virsraksts būtu: "Nauda par brīvu!".. Tad es nebūtu vienīgā, kas savu nožēlojamo acu spožumu vērstu datora ekrānam.

Mums neinteresē citu pierakstītie vārdi uz dimantu spoguļiem. Mums rūp tik ļoti aplamā tagadne, tā, kas norit ap mums.. Ne man rūp tavs ikdienas smaids, ne iemesls kādēļ tas allaž ir vietā, es gluži vienkārši smaidu pretī,...
jo tā man tika mācīts.

Es nedomātu par lietām, kas šķebina dūšu.. es neizvēlētos vienmēr vieglāko ceļu, bet šobrīd, jāteic atklāti, es esmu padevusies. Un nevis tāpēc, ka mani kāds pieveica.. (principā nav jau pat neviena pretinieka), bet gan tāpēc, ka esat jūs..
un es nevainoju nevienu.. nekad! Es tikai konstatēju.

Tā lūk pareizās lietas tiek svērtas un iešķirotas pa šķirnēm - un jāņem vērā arī tas, kurš vairāk tic.. sev vai tam, ka nav iespējams.

te lūk arī noslēgums - es laikam tomēr nepadošos. Es mēģināšu smaidīt, kad tu man atkal pretī nāksi. Es neraudāšu, es nebēdāšos, es negavilēšu priekus, bet gan smaidīšu.. un šoreiz ne tāpēc, ka man tā mācīts, bet gan tāpēc, ka es ticēšu tavam smaidam.. un es mēģināšu, tik cik manos spēkos, saprast kādēļ tu arī šodien loki lūpas. Un nākamajā reizē, kad, kas kritīs, es ķeršu un stutēšu atpakaļ.. un ne tikai. Es pielīmēšu, lai stāv ilgāk. ...
un nevis tāpēc, ka man tā mācīja, bet gan tāpēc, ka esam MĒS.

do u understand?

dziesma: Enigma - Return to innosence

zinu, ka ir iespēja,
ka nekas nepielec,
bet es tevi saprotu,
jo izsakos ļoti sviestaini!!!

Pazaudēts

Kad es pamodīšos būs jau par vēlu
kalni būs apbērti ar sniegu
un paslēpti mākoņu spicēs.

Kad mūsu vilciens pienāks stacijā
ne laikā, bet gan par agru,
mēs tik un tā kavēsim.

Ar pavisam parastu zīmuli
tiek pierakstīts viss, ko atminos vēl,
bet viss tak izdzēšams ir.

Runāsim par to, kas bijis
tad, kad mēs modāmies agri.
nodosim cits citam, lai neaizmirstās.

Tā mēs vairosim pienaglotās atmiņas.
Un tas palīdzēs saprast kur nākamreiz
kāpt ārā, lai esam laicīgi.

Ekskluzīvi drebošās atmiņas izgaisīs,
bet tomēr sīkstākās paliks pie sirds piemetinātas
un tā no laika gala un vēl ilgāk.

Es kaut kur pa ceļam izmetu divus sekotājus.
laikam kabatas cauras, vai varbūt kāds nāsīs ievilka...(!)

pagājušās nedēļas dziesma:
Astro'n'out - Apaļa pasaule

OMG

pēc kā tāda vnk vairs negribās domāt.. nekad, nekad...

Prom.

Ardievu - dzied iekurinātie grēki
un sen atpakaļ veltās bēdas.

Es dodos prom, ne vairs bēgu.
Neesmu ne alīga līgava, ne pusbada vilks.

Dodos, ar izsniegtām atļaujām
un varasvīra aizmuguri.

Man ir viss, kas nodevējam vajadzīgs,
ja ne par daudz.

Bet nu ardievu- vēsta atskaite,
kas uz rakstāmmašīnas sēd.

Karantīna ar divdesmit putniem

Sapulce sākusies,
Jo caur lūku izskrēja apmaldījies cīrulis,
Brēkdams: "Palīgā, es jūku."

Kad citi putni labklājībā dzied,
Tik dzestri kā vēl nekad,
Tikmēr tie, kas savulaik nejēdza paši savu ligzdu vīt
Mokās zem pus kusušām kupenām,
Nevar uz sapulci tikt,
Pat ataicināti neesot.

Jaunas idejas satriecoši klabina knābjus,
Jo citu ķertā varde iekritusi tieši vēdera kodolā
Un tur mitinās,
Labu sajūtu vārdā.

Izlemts tiek par visiem,
Par tiem, kas vardes ķēruši
Un tiem, kas zem kupenām mirkst.
Un atbild uz jautājumiem tikai tie,
kas atlases kārtā pareizi špikeri slēpuši.

bet mums, pārējiem-
viss jau par vēlu.

ar cerību

pat tad kad ikkatra izdevība ir palaista garām ir jāprot atrast turpinājums!